06 January 2009

( Blurrrrrr!!!!!!! )

Today when i tend to change my mood icon, i just could'nt find the right word. I'm senseless. No room for laugh, gossip or even smile! I dont know why. Lepas makan, sambil jalan balik ke office...suddenly, the word came out from my head. EMPTY.

I hate myself for being so loyal to this company. I hate my current job. I just hate it. Rasa tertipu pun ada. Frankly, tak susah pun kerja dekat sini. Some times when the birocracy ( and also politics ) involved too much, baru rasa tense. We have panel lawyers and it makes my job easier and 'lenggang kangkung'. Takde keje bawak balik rumah. Weekend tak payah pergi office. Mr.Bi selalu kata, I patut bersyukur because of im not travelling ke sana ke mari like himself and duduk sahaja depan komputer.

Yeah, I know Bi but this is not a real of me. I miss my old profession. Pagi-pagi rushing mengejar one court to another court...mengah-mengah macam tu pun..at the end of the day..i rasa puas.

A good friend of mine ( Bunze.. kau ok ), did mentioned to me yang dia masuk kerja 'sana' pun sebab boleh ada banyak masa dengan anak and family. Memangla Bunze..kalau bab masa..sorry..i surrender memang our 'real' job memang tough. Tak boleh nak main-main. Bukanlah nak kata kerja sekarang boleh main-main. I mean, takde la pening kepala sangat macam dulu. Betul tak Bunze? Macam kau la Bun...kalau dulu boleh ke kau balik kerje pastu pergi swimming 3 kali seminggu ( sorry babe, mama Di pecah rahsia hahaha ).

So, ada hikmah untuk semua cerita hidup. If im still a practicising lawyer, saya tak boleh suka-suka hatikan nak cuti tiba-tiba kalau anak tak sihat ( dan juga saya yang selalu buat-buat tak sihat ;P ), asyik nak cutiiiiiii je memanjang jer ( Bi, I ada cuti 30 hari tau. Kalau tak cuti..rugi ookkeeyy ). Dan yang aamaaaaaaaattt penting, kalau la saya ni masih kehulur kehilir memanjang dari pagi sampai ke petang...tak taula mission to breastfeed exclusively for Hazzim tu tercapai ke tidak. Dahla now exclusive pumping...huhu tak tercapai dek akal!!

Kesimpulannya, ada dua sahaja option a) career b) family. And of course most of us pilih family. Mungkin ada juga yang pilih career, tapi tak ramai. Macam cerita drama TV3 last Saturday tu. Alaaa... Aida Aris kot yang berlakon. Ending cerita dia macam tak best pun tapi sebab macam related dengan entry saya ni, saya nak tulis jugak. Dan bila my mind reach at this point, barulah rasa " oh..ok. pergi je la kat sini hari-hari sampai ( ? ). Bukannya susah pun. "

Harap-harap..esok dapat datang kerja dengan hati yang rela dan nak buat kerja!!!

5 comments:

cysev3n said...

84% yg bekerja, tak suka dengan kerja diorang..

seems like we are part of the stats..

Zuraimah Ismail said...

laaaa ko blogging gak rupenye....:)
aku plak xmo kejeeeeeeeeeeee nak duk umah je...:)

MN said...

i've the same feelings towards my job.
but i am positive, i'll be able to do things that i like one day.insyaallah.
teruskan berdoa, mudah2an dipermudahkan hendaknya...amin!

Mrs Azarol said...

cik_yan :
hehe so i dah masuk dlm that percentage la eh

ct:
kau memaaang ct hehe

mrs noba:
mudah-mudahan semuanya dipermudahkan. amin

Anonymous said...

sabor jelah u...nak gossiping kt opis mmg susah sket..bla AA kot2 jd tke,adala post kosong tmpt dia..hehe,apa kater?

 

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